Life Update 23 in 25’
So you might be wondering where I have been, realistically probably not,
but since this is my blog I'll tell you all about it..
Currently I’d like to describe this portion of my 20’s as the romance and mental world tour, it’s been all over the place. I’ve somewhat figured out what I want and who I am through these experiences, I’d want to say that one of these worked out but here I am single and 23, which is a dream for most pregnant 24 year olds, again NO SHAME, but personally me , I hope i'm a little more settled down before I get a mini me,
Speaking about mini me’s I have a nephew now, he's about four or five months and he makes me very happy, never thought i'd feel attached to an infant that wasn’t
my own or Eri’s but his cute face makes me have hope, and seeing my brother so happy when he's with his son genuinely puts me at peace, despite all the shit we went through with my dad, he might be the father he needed for his son, but just in case I’ll do my check ins.
My mom moved to a really nice studio in Woodside NY, unfortunately it’s way out of her budget but hey! At least she can say she's doing it on her own, I’m proud at how far she’s come from the abuse to now.
My dad is living in a house in Florida, I think he's alright, though anytime I heard from him he's been drunk. I haven't heard from him since I found out I was dis-enrolled from the insurance, boy was that a shock but on the bright side my job came through.
Now WORK , the topic you all are begging to hear about, work is tedious and tiresome but on the bright side I have Eri, she's definitely my breath of fresh air in the madness, it's kind of like a reminder that I'm not staying there forever, I can always clock-out and go bike ride after.
Downside is my two closest coworkers have been giving me the cold shoulder because i'm no longer choosing to speak on my personal life, I love being open with people, nothing to me really is personal (Perhaps youve noticed from this public blog that is basically my diary) , but they've used what I’ve told them, against me and it felt very out of pocket.
A few weeks ago I had told them that I was going out with the girls for my dear friend Tuli’s birthday, shes an important person to me so going to this late dinner on a Tuesday was a must.
I did not mind because it was Tuli,
that Wednesday I had told them I had gone out since they knew of my plans prior to be with Tuli and the girls, but then that Saturday I was notified by my mother that we were going to finally meet my brother’s son.
For context my brother lives in Austin, Texas with his wife and she was coming down to New York that week for her mothers birthday out in Long Island, so my mom had called to see if we can set up a meeting to meet the baby, which we did; with that context my coworkers responded,
Coworkers “ Where are you meeting the baby?”
Me “ at the mall!”
Coworkers “why at the mall, it's because her family doesnt like you right?”
Me “well probably , but it's whatever”
Coworkers “are you getting the baby a gift?”
Me “no i got the baby a gift for its babyshower, also im broke”
Coworkers “oh it's because you went out drinking with your friends instead right?”
Me “guys that's not a cool thing to say”
Coworkers “it's definetly because she went out drinking with her friends”
At this moment I realized, maybe I shouldn’t be so open. I havent had a feeling like that since middle school, I didnt think the people that have known me for two years and know my character would say something like that, I felt extremely disrespected , I told some close friends about it to figure out if I had any wrongs in this situation but everyone got to the same point which is, people dont deserve to know too much about me, it's not about not being open, it's more about seeing myself as a gift, and how deserving someone is of actually knowing me,
For the first time in my life I am now quiet. I walk in saying Good-morning and work, that is all, but now my coworkers are taking it personally and not saying Goodmorning back and making the atmosphere heavy.
This is fine, I'm grateful God has put me in a position to learn from this and not deteriorate as a past self would do.
I’ll probably go more into my love life soon, but I just wanted to give a quick update on where I'm at currently. More to come! Luv u
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